She
got in her car, buckled her baby in her car seat and headed on her top secret
mission. She had to do it. Lives were in danger. It was up to her to fix everything. It was all up to her. If not her, then whom?
She
drove about five hours to accomplish her job, set things straight, makes things
right. But, this mission—so vital to her—was
all part of a delusion for she was suffering from a postpartum mood
disorder. She had postpartum psychosis
(PPP). A powerful mental illness that
favors new mothers, yet in a twisted way hates them at the same time.
One
may get mood swings, mania, delusions, paranoia, confusion, depression,
irritability, apathy, to name a few, from this disorder. One doesn’t ask for PPP, it asks for you and
you must take it—like it or hate it.
Miriam
Carey went to Washington, DC for a reason we may never know, maybe at the demands
of voices she may have heard. Maybe to confront
the President for the surveillance she thought he was conducting. She went in a luxury sedan, but left in a
body bag. She was considered a threat by
the Capitol Police and Secret Service who have the job of protecting special
interest in the nation’s capital.
I’m
not here to say whether they were justified or not in the force they used. Why bother, she’s already passed now. Her daughter now has no mother. Miriam no longer has psychosis. But, now, only now, that the media caught a
glimpse of what 1 in 1000 women, myself included, have gone through, people are
interested in this weird “rare” phenomenon.
It’s as common as Down’s syndrome, by the way. So “rare” is a poor adjective to describe it.
Why? Because it doesn’t apply. Society assumes it’s rare, but that that just
isn’t so. Women just don’t step out and share
their stories because of the stigmas that still come with mental illness. It’s a bit annoying and frustrating when you
have “authorities” being interviewed on television—you know, the experts—and they
just say completely false statements.
I
personally loved the one who was on a popular morning show on Friday, the day
after Miriam was killed who said the women had Postpartum Depression and that
often causes women to kill their children.
No, Ma’am. That would be
PPP. And that is a rarity. Most women live to tell their stories of how
they survived and how their children are now happy toddlers, pre-school aged
children, teenagers, or even adults.
But, she was an expert, so of course she knew what she was talking
about. She was merely a blanket
therapist, most likely familiar with ADHD in children and not busy at that time
in the morning, so easy to get on the air for a last minute interview. (Sounds to me like she doesn’t have many
patients. Now her credibility has gone
up because she was on a live national show.)
Well, great for career, sad for all the women who have to re-teach their
friends and family that the lady was lost in translation and basically
untrained in postpartum mood disorders.
Postpartum
psychosis is a bona fide illness. The
women that get are not crazy people who should be locked in isolation with
straight-jackets. We are women who are
sick, but with the proper help and therapy can be right next to you and you’d
never know.
I
try to speak in behalf of my sisters.
Protect those that can’t protect their own interests. But Miriam was one that got away. We all need to rally around the community of
women with PPP and other PPMDs and make sure we are all accounted for.
We
cannot let another get away. No more
bloodshed for our sisters. I hope Miriam’s
family—especially her daughter—can have the peace they need to go on from here.
When
you are in the presence of someone with a mental illness, love us, don’t leave
us.
